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here i sit at the spanking brand new computer at 247. i miss sitting in this chair late at night.
btw, i am loving the feel of this keyboard.
life is a mix lately, but i am so glad it is summer. some how i made it out of last semester alive (quite literally) and i can't wait to finish up my time at camden county. my last semester there should be a breeze, then off to rutgers i go. where will i get the money to live? well, we'll find that out at another point in time.
i've decided to do teach for america after getting my masters. hooray!
i might cut my hair. really short. wish me luck.
i am going to miss my boyfriend when he leaves...but it opens up time to read, hang out with my chickadees, and possible volunteer or get a second job for a little bit. lord knows i need to money. apparently collection people are going to be coming after me because of hospital bills. i need to call the insurance people, but they are a mystery. ught. this is the source of my stress today. and being in this house. but i love visiting my parental units.
i've been a major bitch lately and i need to stop.
don't be afraid to call me.
i love you all.
<3<3<3
the time for change has come!
edit: finally some answers. mom and i made a lot of calls today and if i can get that f'ing birth certificate with their names on it as well as proof that i am a full time student, these bills are covered. :D
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[24 Mar 2009|02:36pm] |
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"...he said, 'i lay right there once at the edge of the rock.
i was ready to jump, i was ever so lost.
but this gentleman stopped and said something i never forgot:
'for billions of years since the outset of time,
every single one of your ancestors has survived.
every single person on your mum and dad's side
successfully looked after and passed on to you: life.'
what are the chances of that, like?
it comes to me once in a while.
and everywhere i tell folk it gets the best smile."
:D
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[23 Feb 2009|02:46pm] |
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after spending a weekend with mitch....
sorry guys, but home sucks. at least for me it does, at this point in my life.
i'm hoping i can just hide in his room for the rest of the semester at least...
that. would. be. awesome. urgh.
back to failing german and calculating all the finances awaiting me at home...! :(
ultimate sadface.
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[13 Jan 2009|10:19pm] |
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can someone please buy me the nikon d40?
thx! it's only $409 on newegg.com...not including shipping....
yay! you're the best.
i'm hoping late this spring it will be in my hands.
or you know, the canon eos rebel xSi would be awesome too....a tid bit more expensive but my lenses would still fit...
:D!
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[18 Dec 2008|12:10am] |
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sometimes its amazing.
there are so many things i do, apparently. but i have no recollection....
this is happening more and more frequently, and it is starting to scare me. :X
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| have yourself, a merry little christmas... |
[17 Dec 2008|09:57am] |
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can i tell you how SYKED I AM FOR CHRISTMAS BREAK!?
school is too much to handle with work. i'm getting a little sick to my stomach. what was it about this semester?
just one more exam to go. ack, bio!
hopefully i will: party my ass off, drink every other night with my baby, hang with biddies i haven't seen in awhile, paint a safari, read savage inequalities, twilight (cough), and some other rock memoir, go sledding if it snows, leave work everyday somewhat early but still get finely paid, hang with my sibs, get my eyes fixed, etc.
thats a lot for one month. wish me luck!
then poison me before the 21rst? thanks.
but make sure its the kind that wakes me up mid-may! :P
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[13 Nov 2008|10:21pm] |
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to start things off,
people i know who used to check lj practically everyday and now diss it, fuck you. i still love this site and placing entries once and awhile. plus, i still love getting updates from other people.
life is good. just always seems like a straight, boring line with a few ups and downs.
i'm teaching myself to live in the now, because much of my life is burdened with worries about the future, and how i may of screwed up my past with other worries over other burdens. and i just don't need any of that junk.
breath. breathing brings you back to the present.
i'm falling behind in school but i'm sure i'll pull up, as always. one month left in the semester; thank god.
someone might buy the mazda and i'll finally get a new prescription for my eyes.
i miss mitch desperately but have decided to shut the fuck up. even thinking about it only makes things worse, and hey, i do see him once a month. soon it will be christmas break and then summer. [ack, that's not living in the now! :P]
i have learned that i have quite a bit of a jealous side, and it is only hurting the relationship. there is no reason for me to be worried. in addition, its understandable that since we go to different schools, far away, we'll have to develop our own experiences and go through them separately.
there will be a time when we are together again. it'll all be okay.
with my life diving into a new major, i have completely dropped art. however, i've been craving for some pen and ink, as well as watercolor. hopefully this weekend, after i write my paper.
508 has been wonderful to me but i can't help to still feel bad that my parents are living in a very wet and cold environment. i wish i had money to give them... they always tried their best for me. why don't they want anything good for themselves? my mother will knit depressively to death and my father will work himself to death. ugh. hugs. i will visit them more often.
i rarely see friends, except for at school and work. everyone except laura, with each passing day, i feel as though its creeping a little closer to "hey, i see you like, once a year." i should make a better effort on my half, but people usually are busy, away, or have new friends to hang out with. guess its time for me to do the same.
work is great. even though i despise shoprite, they said i am an asset to the company and i have wowed the mystery shoppers. haha.
i am craving a party and to drink. excessively. i want to get trashed. i never do that; i want to be a mess. just for one night.
i've forgotten the song "the promise" by tracy chapman and just how beautiful it is...
i am tired.
time for sleep. work in the am.
hey, it'll all be okay. just keep chanting that.
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| cozy meets laziness |
[26 Oct 2008|06:43pm] |
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is it sad that i want to buy sweatpants and where them more often?
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[20 Sep 2008|04:53pm] |
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so you you all know that "august and everything after" is within my top 3 albums of all time.
i have now added radiohead, "the bends."
...i wonder which album will complete the trinity?
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[11 Sep 2008|08:17pm] |
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so, mail was waiting for me when i got home.
SVA sent me a huge packet to say, "choose us!" it made me a little sad to see, since the whole thing was huge book of inspiration to me. maybe i will use it later for personal projects. for now, it is 508 coffee table piece.
i am still happy with my choice. i may already have a new job thank to ms. katy; it makes me nervous yet feel wonderful at the same time. i'm sure after training and just sheer practice i will get the hang of things.
on a good note, it it delicious for your parents to give you rice krispie treats as a surprise. :D
everything in my life is swell except for the fact that a certain person is away. i'm sure i don't have to elaborate and i'm sure it is not a good thing to do either....
but it is all i think about.
less than one month he will be home. in less than one month it will be 3 years. how...there isn't even a word for how great it is and how better it will even get. xD
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[04 Sep 2008|09:50am] |
so last night i denounced art and welcomed social work [or, to CCC, "human services"]. hah. let's hope some classes are open.
what a huge relief....
:D
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[31 Jul 2008|11:26pm] |
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i want to be a rock poster artist.
yep.
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| just felt like update time. |
[27 Jul 2008|11:41pm] |
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good night my friends.
i was absolutely sleepy in collingswood, but now with wawa coffee by my side, i feel invincible.
life has been anything but organized lately; i feel as though i'm skipping over loose stones that would allow me to fall into some grave or embarrassing situation. just like on MXC.
in an attempt to feel better about falling behind in life, i decided to make a list of potential goals. yawn.
some of them are redunkerous; i know full well they have 50/50 percentile achievement rating:
A. chase a tornado, B. donate a large sum of money to a charity and C. own a coffee house.
some seem borderline cliche:
D. visit ireland, belgium, amsterdam, and germany, E. own a motorcycle, F. drive across country, and G. at least play guitar in a coffee house.
this one was heart warming:
H. have my own children, but adopt at least one child.
and this one doesn't even pertain to my own life but is at the very tippy-top of the list:
I. make mitchell james bryan the happiest chap in the world.
others are to make one piece of meaningful art and to achieve my pilots license.
i felt like sharing.
i also have no clue what to do with my life but decided that it only makes me a more interesting person. the more things i dabble in the more diverse i become. art school is sounding really lame right about now, but that is only because i have a shit-load of work to do. i planned on working on it tomorrow but cassandra and i are going to philly. see - more stones. :o
i want to snuggle right about now. i'll be honest, i haven't really appreciated it lately. what the fuck is wrong with me? i better get my fill now because i have a feeling this year will be nothing like freshman year. mitchell will come home once every two months if i'm lucky. i can't wait to visit him though; it's such a nice change of pace since my routine during the school year is mundane and way too fast. it will break my heart a little to have him so far away again but its what he needs. space is good in a relationship...for the most part.
i'm also sick of being my sad self - but i say that all the time.
hmm. so this was just an update. it feels good to talk and know that people will be reading this. usually i just type away to myself. :P
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[16 Jul 2008|09:09am] |
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does anyone have a chess board i can borrow?
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[08 Jul 2008|10:27am] |
anyone want to go see ben folds at the mann center on september 6th?
i'll probably even go by myself....
i wonder how much the tickets are?
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[20 Jun 2008|04:15pm] |
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jennie is about to sell her body to the night.
$400 is fix the alternator.
$600 to fix the wheel thinger (but i'm hoping to never get to this and just ride this baby till november. but we all know my luck!)
guess it's time to find a second job...and stay up all night to do some art.
see me now cause you'll never see me again!
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[17 Jun 2008|12:15pm] |
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so i couldn't attend my place of employment today because the little thing that attaches my battery to my car is loose, and in conclusion my car won't start. it is quite easy to fix, but of course, my hood decides to play this little game called "do i feel like opening today?" every other day. guess what the 626 picked. oh well.
my car runs fine but after the nonsense of fixing all these little things lately (and the threat of a $600 problem), i think i might take out another stafford loan (even though i originally decided not too) and in november (or whenever ccc decides to hand checks out at their leisure :P) i will trade in the mazda (a blue book value of $840) to put a down payment on a newer used car.
sounds like a plan. with a better car i will be able to visit mitchell in hartford at least once while he is a RA.
my new-found free day will be spent packing, and hopefully i will borrow young's car to drop off this stuff at 508.
....dear jesus christ, i didn't know i owned so much CRAP. ;D
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[09 Jun 2008|11:25am] |
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i was going to pack...but it is too hot.
i was going to draw...but it is too hot.
all i can do is wash. and i'm going to hit the lib and read alllllll day. well, at least until my bestest gets home. :D
CONGRATS CASS AND LIAM! thanks for the fantastic weekend. i really do love you guys. xD
edit: i always feel as though the people in the south county library are watching me...
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[29 May 2008|08:48pm] |
i hate money.
green is no longer my favorite color.
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[21 May 2008|10:12am] |
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over the hills and far away |
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haha, fuck you CCC.
i managed to get an A in the class i thought i was getting my first D in.
sweet. new gpa: 3.6...let us bring that up, shall we?
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